Everything in one post.

Christmas is over, and family is here visiting.
I didn't post much last week, we were busy and had a lot going on.
Today I am gonna cover a bunch.
My weigh in on Christmas, whats been going on, and my recap of the year.

Last Wednesday, I weighed in at.....193.
To most, I am still a fatty. To me, I couldn't be any happier! I am FINALLY in the 100's, and I am getting closer and closer every day to where I want to be.
December 1, I was 201.8, and twenty-five days later, 193!
That is 8.8 lbs lost, granted I didn't hit fifteen, but I am happy happy happy!
Since June, I have lost thirteen percent of my body weight! I still can't believe I am actually doing it, and I will continue to keep going.
Regardless what anyone thinks, I know I am kicking ass, and lapping anyone who wants to turn a nose up to me.

Last Wednesday, was also Christmas! We had so much fun! This year was Owens first year to actually get excited and understand kinda whats going on.
It was also our first year to not be with family, or see Brylee. I could say its getting easier, but its never easy not being with your children, it is becoming manageable.
The kids got a lot, and have enjoyed every bit of it!
I surprised Austin with a PS4! He was definitely a happy man.
Austin surprised me as well! That man goes above and beyond and spoils the hell outta me!
From new pots and pans, casserole dishes, shoes, sunglasses, and clothes--that man knows how to treat a woman! I sure am lucky to be that woman too!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A few days later, we got to go get his mother, Mason, Shalyn, and----BRYLEE from the airport!
I have missed that girl so much! She is getting so big and so smart its unreal!
Owen is so happy to have them all here, and I know Austin is too!
I can honestly say, Brylee is probably my biggest fan. She is so sweet to me, and is just such an awesome kid!
Having Deedee and the kids here is great! Deedee is always on the go, and since being here she still is..cleaning and helping and just go-go-going! Owen is asleep, and they all went to the mall to hang out. I did some cleaning, started the crock pot, and now some blogging.
With that, lets look back on 2013, as its coming to an end!

The year started off with us moving from Pennsylvania back to Texas.
I have learned so much this past year.
I have grown.
I have grieved.
I have lost.
I have loved hard.
I have made new friends.
I have started something new, and stuck with it.
I have watched my kids grow.
I have fought for myself.
This year has been one for the works.
Austin lived the majority of the year in another state, and I became depressed. Very depressed.
I had a miscarriage that devastated me, and probably caused entirely way to much stress and resentment in my marriage.
I don't have the same friends I had in high school, or even right after high school. I have new friends.
These new friends though, are the best I could as for.
Kaela came into my life at exactly when I needed her too.
She has been my backbone.
She has kept me strong.
She has listened when I needed her, and talked when I needed to hear.
She has taught me so much about myself, and genuinely made me a better person, a better mother, a better wife.
Austin and I had many ups and downs.
To many to count.
I can say though I am now happier with him then I ever thought I could be.
Being here, isolated in another state with just him and Owen is the best decision I have ever made.
My love and respect grows every day for him, and a year ago I didn't know if we would make it this year.
Today, I don't know how I would make it with out him.
Brylee and I have had a year. She is now at a age of testing boundaries, and hurting feelings.
I am now a step mother to her and not just her parent. It has been hard being the 'evil' step mother, but as the year went on I stood my ground and I feel we have learned so much about each other.
I am not her 'real' mom. Those words cut so deep this year, but now..now she tells me how much she loves me, how she misses me all the time, and I am the best stop mom ever.
It has taken time, but it has been worth it.
Owen. My best friend. The best thing Austin and I could have ever done. This past year with him has gone way to fast. I want to pause time and hold onto him forever.
2013 has been one of the hardest, yet rewarding years for me this far.
I know I am only 23, and I will have many years to reflect upon, but I also know that everything that happened this year has been worth it.
Here's to my mom telling me that I'm an awesome mom.
Here's to making the best memories with my children.
Here's to meeting my best friend.
Here's to losing 27 effing pounds.
Here's to making mistakes and learning.
Here's to mending relationships.
Here's to ending relationships that weren't good for me.
Here's to Frescos.
Here's to all the books I have been reading.
Here's to coming out of my shell.
Here's to being proud of myself for once.
Here's to love.
Here's to all the things you said that were wrong.
Here's to 2013!
Lets hope 2014 brings more love.
More happiness.
More weight loss.
More learning.
Stronger friendship.
More babies (:

Christmas is coming!

One of the many perks of moving to West Virginia, because lets face it there aren't many, was the fact we would have a white Christmas! In Texas we don't get snow. Wet get ice. The one year we actually got some fluffy snow, Austin proposed to me. How sweet. So since October, it has snowed around ten times, and every time it snows, I feel the need to shout at the top of my lungs that its beginning to look a lot like Christmas!
Austin loves it.
Well, its two days before Christmas, and its effing 56 degrees! It is not looking like a white Christmas.
Someone give me a dailys.

This past weekend was pretty busy:

• we cleaned the house to get ready for my mother in law, Mason, Shalyn, and of course BRYLEE to come up.
• my parents sent money for the kids, so we went and bought way to many clothes for them, and an extra special gift for miss Bnuts!
• bought Bry a new bed.
• I have found a new love for a new book series.
• I have done laundry like it was going out of style.

My mother in law is flying up, and bringing Brylee for Christmas vacation! We are so excited, especially Owen. He has a love for her that is unreal! We spent a lot of time working on things that we just haven't done, the upstairs bathroom, Austins office, Brylees room, etc. I feel as though I keep my house pretty nice, I just haven't really done anything to the upstairs.

My parents, who I feel as though are Christmas angels(they have some awesome holiday cheer) sent money to get the kids Christmas. Shipping cost an arm and leg, and who wants to pay for that ish.
The kids already have a ton of stuff under the tree, and Santa defiantly went overboard, so we decided to get a ton of clothes, and Brylee got a extra special gift from her Oma and Popi. My father did not come up with the name popi...my mother finds it appropriate to refer to him as popi-cholla, the kids heard it and viol-la!
Before we moved up here, I got rid of the majority of Brylees things. We had planned on buying her a new bedroom set for Christmas before we decided to move, so I just went ahead and got Austin to get stuff up here so we would have less things to pack. We waited until last minute to do that. Ooops.

I have a love for books. I love getting lost in them. I can read for hours upon hours if Owen would let me. So instead I read during nap time, and until 2am. Whatcha gonna do. In high school, I was all about love stories, wizards, vampires, any kind of fantasy world. As an adult...well I still love the same stuff. I mean who wouldn't want to read about the greatest wizard of all time? So this past week I bought the movie, The Mortal Instruments...amazing! It is a GREAT movie! From love to vampires, to demons and hunters! So much thrill and excitement. I posted on Facebook about it, only to find out its a series! Oh my land did I get excited! I immediately bought the series on my kindle, and I am now on book five....out of six. Whats a girl to do?

Laundry. Effing Laundry. I know being a stay at home mom, it's my duties to cook, clean, take care of Owen, buy things all the time, and do laundry. I feel as though I am always washing and drying. Austin is the worlds worst at putting the laundry in the stinking hamper! Seriously, I could punch him in his throat. The past week, he has been nagging at me, "you take all my socks, I have no socks K'lynn." I just bought myself a new pack of socks, only for him to take them. So as I am cleaning the house, I found seven pairs of Austins socks! I don't take his socks, he hides them! He will throw his dirty socks ANYWHERE!!!

I know, I live such an exciting life! Other then all that, I got to enjoy Jimmy Fallon and JT on SNL. Jimmy Fallon is my all time man crush, other then my husband of course.
We also get to watch minions, as well as monsters 24/7. I love my kid, anything to make that little gremlin happy!

Late update, as well as other stuff

Weigh in Wednesday is a day late.
Sorry about that.

Lets get to business, Austin and I both weighed in yesterday, and Austin was down two pounds, and I was down four! Austin will most likely hit his fifteen pound weight loss on for Operation Christmas, I am hoping to hit at least ten. I have accepted that I probably wont hit fifteen since I am only down 5.2 pounds. Hey that's okay though, it's still a loss, and I am still chugging along.
Possibly, we may make some New Years bets. Its just better when Austin and I do this together.
My pants are getting loose, and the shirt I wore to dinner last night was baggy, not too baggy.
I am so happy that we are both making progress. It is just a great feeling to achieve goals, even if they are small.
Austin gets embarrassed when I talk about his weight loss at times, he doesn't want others to think he thinks he better or on a fad diet.
But I am proud of him, I want to be able to brag about every little thing he does! I value him as a person and as my husband, and when he succeeds in something it gives me so much joy.
In other news, the big Duck Dynasty conflict.
I am baffled by this.
I see post on facebook saying, "It's blowing up news feed", "no one cares", "more important things are going on in the world".
Of course this is whats all over social media, obviously some care if it's blowing up your news feed, and indeed more important things are happening, but that's just it, WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE WHATS IMPORTANT, IF A CHRISTIAN MAN CAN'T VOICE HIS OPINION?

Why is it a surprise that a Southern Christian man, believes that homosexuality is a sin? Did you think that perhaps his lifestyle shown on TV wasn't real? A man who teaches his family the word of the bible, teaches his sons how to be godly men and provide for his family, prays on national television was going to be running to the White House to pass gay marriage?
Seriously, this family has done more good then bad. Young teens look up to this family, and why is that a bad thing? Because a group of gay and lesbians got upset of freedom of speech. Everything this man says gets turned into something else, this poor guy cant win. He was asked about his beliefs on a matter, he quoted the bible and said what he had to on the subject, he went on further to say he wasn't here to judge, that will be done one day, his job is to love Jesus and love others. No one cares to hear that part though.

With that being said, I am no where near a perfect Christian, I don't pretend to be.
I don't go to Church every Sunday, we actually haven't been since we moved here.
I say curse words.
If Owen ever does the math, he will know I was pregnant before marriage.
I have gossiped.
I stole money from my dads money jar to get chips.
I have hate in my heart for the people whose DNA runs through my body.
I know who I am though.
I do know what is right from wrong, and I know I am indeed a sinner. I believe that Jesus died for our sins, I believe in Heaven and Hell, and I believe in the Bible and what it stands for.
I believe in my marriage, I made vows before God to become one will my soul mate. Call it cheesy, but I made promises to God, my husband and now my children.
I believe that people only see what they want.
Miley Cyrus 'twerks' her ass on a married man, and its art.
Teen mom 2 star Jenelle Evans is addicted to drugs, ratings are higher then ever.
Kanye West compares his rapping life style to our military men and women as well as law enforcement, no big deal.
A Christian man speaks on his beliefs, and now he is fired, and being viciously attacked by media.
What a sad world we live in.
Why not play devils advocate?
Isn't there a parade for the gay community? Why not a straight parade? Why is it fair that gays and lesbians are able to prance around and make posters in a parade, yet married and straight couples don't get the opportunity?
Isn't there a Tv show with homosexuals? Are we gonna cancel it for all the people who don't believe its right?

I don't care who you like.
White, black, yellow, orange, male female, pig, horse, or second cousin.
If you are able to speak on what you believe, why can't others?

It's always sunny in...

 

 

Well, not in Nutter Fort West Virginia.

It's Monday, and right now I am usually on my way to the gym.

Austin said to wait until 10:00 though to see if the ice melts a bit. It's snowing once again. It's beautiful, that's no question, but it rained yesterday...so under this beautiful snow is ice.

 

This weekend I officially finished wrapping all the presents.

I love Christmas. I am so excited for the day to come. Luckily, Owen doesn't mess with the tree or the presents. I have a pretty awesome kid!

 

 



 

 

I also went and got my nails done for the winter.

I mean, how will anyone know what season it is unless we put it on our fingernails?

Getting my nails done is also my monthly me time.

Yes, I go to the gym and have a good seventy-five minutes alone.

Yes, I enjoy being a stay at home mom and wouldn't trade it for anything, but sometimes we all need alone time. 

   

 

Pinterest mom.

I was that mom this weekend.

I always find awesome things on Pinterest to do, and somehow they never turn out.

This time though...well I was proud of myself!

Owen and I made the salt dough ornament with his hand on it.

He is all boy too! He kept squishing the dough and telling me, 'good job'.

 

 

 

Austin had to work a lot this weekend, so we weren't able to do much together.

I am so proud of him.

He has been eating clean, and drinking only water and is already down 10 pounds!

I need to get on his level! 

 

My weekend wasn't very exciting, I know.

Hopefully, the weeks to come will be better.

A lot goes on in my life, but at the same time I can't post everything in fear someone will get butt hurt.

 

On another note, December 13, marked a very important date for my brother and sister in law(Austins older brother).

Natalie and Miles got married in January 2010, and I was lucky enough to witness it.

Through out the past three years, Natalie has wanted nothing more then to be a mother, and I have always thought she would be a wonderful mother, even with our ups and downs, the love she has for children is unreal!

So, after trying to conceive the past couple years, they decided on adoption.

With help from the church as well as Gods guidance, they were able to connect with an Agency.

This summer, they got the phone call that a girl and her family had picked Natalie and Miles to be the parents of her unborn baby.

Everyone was overjoyed, but with adoption comes the chance of them saying, 'just kidding'.

December 13, 2013 Asher officially became a MONTGOMERY!

He has been with them since June, but legal reasons you must wait so long before the state will recognize the child as your own.

Now he is.

Adoption touches me deeply, as Korey and I were both adopted(under different circumstances of course).

I get so excited hearing Natalie talk about baby Asher, and the love she has for him.

I am so happy that she is able to share something so wonderful with me.

As our children grow, we can talk about it and laugh.

Make fun of them, love them, kiss the owies.

 

I just feel like often people don't step back to enjoy the view.

Always know, bigger plans are made for you.

 

  

  

  

Link up with a celebrity.

So, unless you are a blogger, this 'celebrity' may not be known to you.
Holly, was my first follower, and the first blog I started to stalk follow.

Time for a Christmas Link up!
Lets hope I win, Lord knows I spent our life savings this year on Christmas.



1. My favorite Christmas was....Our first Christmas as a family! Owen was only two months, and Brylee didn't get to wake up at our house that year, but it was the best. The joy and excitement we all had when we were together is something I wont ever forget!

2. The worst Christmas I had...Hmm, hard to say. Probably before Korey and I were adopted. All I wanted was some jelly shoes for Christmas, and what do you know, my 'mother' didn't get them. I don't even think we did anything that year for Christmas. Maybe got some IOU's from her.

 

3. That one gift that made me scratch my head and say, "Hmmmm" was...I think I have a tie! Austin LOVES buying me things 'as seen on tv' Last year I got a Zebra snuggy that I never wore, as well as a picture of cats. Yes, you read that right. We like to watch Shark Tank, and one episode, Mark Cuban invested money into a guys company who 'hand draws' cat portraits. I feel as though Brylee could make better drawings. Anyway, I got a 'portrait' in the mail that said, "Austin requested a family of four in front of the mountains waving'

I wish I could find that drawing.

 

4. One year I....tried to out do my brothers gifts for our parents! I kid...that's every year.

 

5. I think the worst gift to give is....anything you get my kids that's loud, annoying, or I have to keep alive.

 

6. At Christmastime I typically....wake up the whole family at five in the morning! This year is our first Christmas with out my parents though....sad sad.

 

7. Typically, family Christmas....is at my mom and dads! We all stay the night before, and bake and eat! My daddy makes Delish Prime rib, and we usually have a fire going. The next morning my mom makes something yummy for breakfast(the meal she is best at making) and we open presents! Sometimes we will go to a movie depending on who is all over.

This year, it will be Austin, Owen, and I. I am super excited, because Owen is actually at a fun age where he kinda gets it! Then a few days later, My mother in law is coming up with the two youngest and Bnuts!

 

8. If I could change one thing about the Holiday season....it would be for people not to be so judgemental. Austin and I believe in God, but we also believe in Santa. I mean how selfless can you be to get gifts for your children, and not take credit for it? As well as explaining the reason for the season.

Christmas is about giving, love and laughter.

Celebrating our Lord.

 

9. It is so hard to buy for....Austin! Mostly because he wants everything expensive, or I tell him what I get him because I can't keep secrets.

 

10. My favorite Christmas tradition is...I don't think we have one. We try not to get to serious, and just relax and listen to Michael Buble.

 

11. Santa, baby, bring me a ....flatter stomach, some black toms, clean out my car, some kitchen things, pajamas, sunglasses, and I think that will do (:

Weigh in.

Blah.
I weighed in this morning.
Why is it so hard to kose the weight?
I haven't lost anything since last week.
Me being the weigh myself whore that I am though, gained some weight over the weekend, and lost that.
If only it counted.
I'm gonna have to take it up a notch!
Monday-Friday at the gym just isn't enough.
Semi clean eating obviously isn't either.
I'm gonna have to just buckle down and fully go clean.
What is it, 80 percent food, 20 percent gym?
I can kick butt in the gym, but you can't outwork a bad diet.

It is so cold in West Virginia.
Texas did not prepare me for this.

I haven't got home sick yet.
I mean my home is where my heart is.
I do miss my best friend though.
It's not the same with out her.
Knowing I could see her every day in Texas, and now I can't.
Sucks.
She's still my biggest supporter, because we all know we are our own worst enemy.
I really need to get more structure to what I say on here.

Just been a rambling.

Monday madness

Well, well, well, it's Monday.

Austin woke up sick today, which is never fun. Austin being sick=I actually HAVE to do stuff.

Normally, I will cook, clean, do laundry, take care of Owen, all that jazz just because I'm supposed too.
Well, now I have to do all that times ten! Making sure his nasty germs don't get Owen, or heaven forbid me sick! When moms get sick, the world doesn't stop, but Hell does emerge. So pick your battles.

So, this morning I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off.
Made breakfast for us, and got ready.
I got my booty in the gym for a great workout(I did a little to much snacking this past weekend).
Went to WalMart to pick up the rest of Christmas stuff, as well as grab the hubs some crackers, sprite, and meds.
Went to the mall to grab the last of Austin Christmas stuff, and headed home.
Cleaned, and got the hubs everything he needed, grabbed myself some pretzels, and now I'm 'relaxing'.

Our weekend was busy.
I feel as though we are always busy.
Especially Austin!
I'm so happy to say that we are done shopping though, that is way to stressful.

You see, my parents have always been Santas helper. Of course we buy our children presents and celebrate Christmas with family, but this is the first year I do it alone.
Boy am I anxious! I even called my mother freaking out, because she has always done everything so perfect.
Every year we would get the kids and stay at my parents om Christmas Eve.
My father would make a delish meal, we would bake cookies, watch movies, and do the whole open one present on Christmas Eve...and then the kids, and myself would go to bed.
We all know in order to receive you better believe! Well now I am Santas helper, I don't feel as though I am ready for all that responsibility. I know eventually you have to venture out into the adult world, but it feels so soon!

Enough of that talk, I'm working myself up thinking of it all, no lie.

We had beautiful snow this past weekend, not ice like I am used to in Texas!
It's snowed a lot since we have moved up here and I love it!
Owen loves the snow! It was so much fun watching him play, and laughing...so on an ending note, what do you think hes doing in this picture....

Take a stand.

Today, I came across THIS on facebook. A video going viral, and for all the right reasons.
Not enough people address bullies. I occasionally see some people who may via social media, but at the same time I have seen those same people being mean to others.

I remember being in grade school and getting made fun of for things I couldn't control.
You see, I was 'white trash'.  My mother was the mother who showed up drunk to my school, I was the girl with lice, I was the girl who had a mom that worked at Judy Kays, as well as Kathys bar. The girl who had a mom who slept around. Adults would stereo-type me, thinking Korey and I didn't know.
We did.
We heard it.
We lived it, and it sucked.

Next, we were the 'foster kids'. Although now we at least looked nice, people would still pick on me because now, 'no one loved us'.

After I got adopted  I thought, oh things will change. Well, my name changed from Hill, to Armbrust(pronounced arm-breast). Low and behold, I got boobs. So next it was people making fun of my name, "Can I put my arm on your boobs" Really? Real original.

High school, I got made fun of for being a 'prude'.
Seriously. Guys make fun of girls for not having sex, but at the same time if you have to much sex you get made fun of too.
After my brother graduated, a few guys called me fat. They would 'moo' at me like a cow and throw some food at me.
I hated it. I remember crying and wanting to move schools. Not much of my high school years did I enjoy. I am not saying, 'oh feel sorry for me' that's not what I am fishing for.

You see now, I'm in my twenties, I am married, and have a step daughter and a son.
Not even a month ago, I got made fun of by a woman older then me.
I got called fat, nasty, ugly, lazy, you name it, she said it. She called out my stretch marks, my parenting, and who  I am as a person.
It took me back.
Words do hurt. BAD.
The sad thing is though, as much as all this heart me, and made me feel low, this is NOTHING compared to what others go through.
It kills me as a parent, what may or may not happen to my children.
I even worry about the people who bullied me. What happens if one day you have kids, and they get made fun of? OR worse, what happens if you teach them this awful habit?

Girls get made fun of if they are 'fat' or 'skinny'. Some girls hate being told how little they are, and others will starve themselves to meet what society proclaims is 'hot'.
Some, even make fun of girls who are actually comfortable if they are over weight, using pictures of curving women and saying, 'These are curves, you are just fat.'

People get made fun of for skin color. Calling a African American the 'N' word doesn't make you a bad ass rebel, it makes you ignorant, and your heart full of hate.

Using the words: stupid, retard, tard, dumb...so on, those words mean a whole lot, especially to someone who may be classified as mentally retarded, or someone who is even dyslexic.

Are you gay? Is it really my business? No. Profiling the gay community as 'fags' or 'homos' isn't acceptable. Bottom line. I don't get in the debate of being gay or not being gay. It's not my business what others choose or who they choose. It's also not others business to deliberately make fun of those people. Bringing religion into it, is your deal, but making fun of them is not right.

The world is getting out of control with bullying. I don't understand what makes one person better then the next.

People can't control what color skin they have.
People can't control how straight there teeth are.
People can't control who there parents are.
People can't control if they have a disability.

Weigh in Wednesday.

Today was weigh in Wednesday.
The first weigh in that I have done on here in a while.
The second weigh in since Austin and I decided 'Operation Christmas'.
I haven't talked much about weight here, so I am gonna give some back story, and a up to date.

I feel as though I have always struggled with weight. Same song different dance.
I look back though, and I feel as though I am harder on myself for beating myself up now than anything.
I was so hard on high school K'lynn, and senior year I was a size 5 and roughly 135-140 ish. Why was I so mean to myself??

When Austin and I met I was roughly 148, wearing a size 5 still.
We were both a lot smaller. As we dated, I got happier and happier and the weight started going up and up.
After Austin got burnt, I gained a lot of weight. I ate whatever I wanted, I was depressed, and I didn't do any physical activities.
When I got pregnant with Owen I was 192 pounds! I had no idea how much I weighed, and I didn't worry about it because I was wearing a size 8/10. I didn't think I was pushing 200!
When I gave birth to Owen I was around 203-207, I don't remember exactly. I just know I didn't gain much probably because I was already a fatty patty
I breastfed Owen and lost a lot of weight, I got down to 186, and when I was done breastfeeding it slowly crept up on me.
December 2012, we decided to move back to Texas, and I was determined to lose some weight! I was in the 190's again and I didn't want to be Owen's fat mom. That same month we found out I was about 7 weeks pregnant, so I thought, let's just get a elliptical and I will make this pregnancy healthier.
January, I had a miscarriage. I got super depressed. I ate as much ice cream, pizza, chicken, really anything I could.
May 2013, I found out I was at the 220! Seven months ago. I was a size XL, and 16! I did this to myself. I was embarrassed. It made me sick.
I started eating clean, busting my ass at the gym, setting goals, I didn't want anything in my way.
I slowly, but surely started seeing a difference. A pound here, my stomach getting flatter, my arms toning up...I was beyond happy.
Austin decided we should move up here with him, and I told him I would do anything as long as he gets me a gym membership. He did, and I have been in the gym Monday-Friday(child care is closed on weekends) I watch what I eat and I am trying.
I have had people put me down, and I have had people lift me up.
This is about me, and my journey and where I have gotten.
I started out a size 16, and I am now a 10. That is something to be proud of.
Austin and I measured ourselves and took our weight on November 30, I am not sharing those numbers until December 25.
Honestly, I don't want to pay attention to hard on our measurements and our weight as much as I want to just kick ass and keep going.
So, with all that said, our first weigh in I am down one pound. One pound in three days, I will take that.
This is all new to me.
This is just a mom and wife trying to get healthy and look good doing it.

December 2012

 

June 2013

 

August 2013

 

First picture May 2013, Second July 2013

 

November 2013

 

 

Picture overload I am sorry.

 

Thanksgiving & Cyber Monday

Hello all!

It has been a while now, hasn't it?
Thanksgiving was awesome! Austin woke up early, (after getting home after midnight the night before from work) and took his workers to breakfast.
Part of being in the oil field, you miss out on a lot...birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, really any holidays.
When he got home, he made Owen and I breakfast, super DELISH! Austin is such a great cook and I am sure if he reads this his head will get even bigger. We spent most the day in our jammies, watching the parade and some football. Austin FRIED our turkey. WOW. If you haven't had a fried turkey before you are missing out. Once you go fried, you dont go bake ha get it. Chaddy came over and we all enjoyed a nice and easy dinner. Brylee called us and we were able to talk to her for a bit, of course she told us what she wanted for Christmas!
That night, Austin took the day shift guys to dinner too. If I didn't love Austin a lot before, I love him even more now. He is such a great boss. He is always concerned about the weather and if they guys had enough sleep, he truly goes above and beyond.

We didn't do a lot of Black Friday shopping, I went to Wal Mart and snagged a few things, and then we hit up Target. I just don't care for all that mess. Way to many crazies.

I did do my first online shopping experience.
Oh my land!
I can't even think of Cyber Monday, I am patiently awaiting all my goodies!
I ordered me some It works wraps by Lindsey Lee, she is awesome! I have been a loyal customer coming up on a year, and she is always right on the spot with any questions I have. I have seen first hand GREAT results, me personally, I love what they do for my stretch marks.
I also hit up Victoria Secrets for some new bras and jammies!
Old Navy is ALWAYS a must for me, I mean I own the best things they have.
I also ordered some super cute ear warmers from Three birds nest, if you follow me on Instagram, you can see a picture I posted, I love etsy, and this place is right on target with the fad right now(My computer isn't uploading pictures for some reason).
Last, but not least, I ordered Brylee a super cute purse from another shop on etsy, Selby Lane. The customer service here is AWESOME! She responded super fast to any questions I had, and is also going to put Brylees name on the purse for free!
I found both these sites from creepin Skinny Meg. She has an eye for whats cute, and also not too pricey.

I can't wait to get it all in and show it off!

Once I get my wraps in, I will do before and after pictures, and give Lindsey another shout out, and I may even give one away (:
Stay tunned for that.

Last, but not least, Austin and I are doing 'Operation Christmas'.
We took our measurments and our weight, and I will reveal that at the end with our results. We plan on losing fifteen pounds by Christmas. Will it be hard? Most likely. Are we dedicated? Hells YES!
I am so excited he is on board with me, and I can't wait to see how this month goes!

Who I am.

Today, I have thought a lot about who I am, and where I would or could be.

Be prepared for some rambling, run on sentences, and much more.

I always get deep around holidays. I think too much. I reflect on things. I beat myself up. Really, I just think and absorb everything in my life.

I know that everything I have done or haven't done has shaped me into the person I am, as well as the person I am becoming. We constantly change.
I read in a book once that the key to a good marriage is loving every aspect of your spouse as well as yourself. You have to teach yourself to fall in love with that person all over again, because as much as they have changed through out your relationship, you have too.

Where would I be if Austin and I didn't meet? I would like to hope that I would be a graduate, and starting my career. But I know that I would most likely be a lost young adult, trying to win my parents approval, and search for the 'perfect' guy. Because I know that before I met Austin, I wanted the movie love. I wanted to join the peace corps and change peoples life. I had so many unrealistic dreams and goals. I also know that with Austin, I got a beautiful son, an amazing man as a husband, and someone I can share my new goals and dreams with.

Where would I be if I wasn't adopted. Most likely, I would be a high school drop out, with two or three kids. Learning the family business, 'How to cook everything under your kitchen sink, and turn it into meth'. I come from a winning family tree. Luckily, I did get some awesome parents, who taught me right from wrong, and made me the woman who looks and longs for there approval, when she already has it. I am not sure where I would be with out them.

Where would I be if Owen wasn't here? I would probably be stretch mark free. But I also wouldn't know a love so strong, so deep, and so rewarding. I though I knew love with Austin, but its a different love when you have a child. I remember being pregnant, wondering if I would love my baby as much as I love Brylee. Love multiplies. It grows. It gets stronger.

I think about people who have come in and out of my life. I know we all have our reasons, and life happens. I also know that every person I have been friends with, and I am still friends with has shaped me. I know what a healthy friendship is like. I know what it's like when both people put the same amount of time, love, encouragement into the friendship. I also have learned what I strive to be as a friend, and how not to treat others.

I remember the petty things I have done in the past.
Was it worth it?
Did I accomplish anything with the gossip, angry text, rude facebook status?
No. No I didn't.

Do I feel bad about it? Of course.
Have I mended those relationships? Some yes, some are not able to fix.
Everything we do or say has a consequence. People may forgive, but they don't forget. The saying, 'sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me' that's a lie. Words hurt. They cut deep, and words are one thing you can't ever take back. ALWAYS think before you speak.

I often think way to much about the negative people in my life, but at the same time, those people have changed me for the better.
I am twenty-three, I am a young mother and wife, and I already know what kind of mother and wife I want to be...I strive to be, because of the rude and hateful people in my life.
Every time I want to give up at the gym, I go back to my junior year, and the dumb jock who called me a cow and mooed at me. I think about the girl who sent me text about how fat I am, how gross my body is, and I keep going. The people who bring me down, also fuel my fire, because if there is one thing in this world I know for sure, its that I don't want to be like those people.

I don't know where I will be in a month, two months, or a year. I do know that I will be better then I am now though. All I can ever do is strive to be better.
Be a better wife.
Be a better mother.
Be a better daughter.
Be a better sister.
Be a better friend.
Be the best version of K'lynn that I can be.

We forget who we are at times.
We forget where we have come from, and where we are going.

Weekend recap

Sorry about the late post.

 

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This happened today, at around 11 am...went on all stinkin day.

 

 



Anyways, let us get to the extravagant weekend!

Friday, I don't have much to say. Austin was in Philly, and Owen and I were home. Alldayumday.
I wish I could say I went to the gym, but I didn't. I wish I could say I was active, but I wasn't. It was rainy and gloomy, and Owen and I hung out.
We had death in a box aka Macdonalds for dinner, and Owen may or may not have cussed at me when I wanted to take a cute picture of his fat self with ice cream.

Saturday, we were pretty busy.
We did some Christmas shopping, present wrapping, we had some yummy food at this amazing Italian place(Olive Garden ain't got nothing on it)(YES I DID USE double negatives) 
As we left dinner, it was snowing. Perfect ending to out night.
We got home, and put Owen to bed, and played some video games and ate more crap(no not real poop).

Sunday, we spent way to much money.
We watched QVC the night before, and decided we had to have the butterball turkey fryer.
Since I am a genius though, I Googled cheaper prices, and Wal Mart does not sell it for 5 easy payments of 39.95....its just a easy 90bucks! BaM Bam thank you ma'am.
So this year we will be frying a Turkey for three. Not just any turkey either, a twelve pound turkey.

We also got one of my Christmas presents, Paula Dean pots and pans thank you Paula for saying the same word every rapper says, and making your pots and pans super cheap.

Next up was the Christmas tree and decorations, because I am that person who will decorate when ever I want.
I mean really, it's Jesus birthday, why wouldn't I want to celebrate all year long?

Guess whats back, back again?
Go tell a friend.

White chocolate covered oreos.
BOMB.

 

 

Friday, my second favorite 'F' word

Father being my first.

I have certainly been blessed with finding the most amazing man to be my husband, and Owens father.

You see, Austin is everything a father should be. He reminds me so much of mine, which is good in a way, because my father showed me what it's like when you love your wife and children. He set the bar high for anyone I would ever want to marry and have children with.

Austin leaped over that bar. He is better then any expectations I set. He is hard working, supportive, lovable, personable, charming, handsome, respectful, and makes some pretty babies.

Today, he is flying to Philly for a doctor's appointment.
You see its been three years since Austin was burnt.
Three years, our life changed.
Three years, we thought we would lose Austin.
Though the scars(emotional and physical)still remain, he is still the best man for me.

As he is on his flight, I sit here an think to myself...
Does he know how much we appreciate him?
Does he know how much we love him?
Do I take him for granted?
Do I ever show lack of appreciation?

Today, I want to take a long look at myself and who I have become and figure out, am I the best wife I could be to him?
Could I do better?
Nag less?
Love more?
Watch football instead of gLee?
Let him drink out of the milk jug more.

We take life for granted way to much.
In a second it could be over.
Three years ago it almost was.
Have I done everything I can to live our life to the fullest since?

No, but all I can do is change that today and move forward.

Austin works all day, comes home and immediately is in a better mood when he sees us. He wrestles with Owen, loves on me, helps with whatever I am doing, and watches what I want. He leaves everything outside the door and comes in ready to go.

I couldn't be happier, and often I don't show that.

Today, I am thankful for fathers.
Today, I am especially thankful for Owens and Brylees father.

Come together.

One thing I see a lot: moms trying to out do other moms.

Why? What is the point?

It starts with when you are pregnant, the 'advice' is pushed on you; because let's face it, you don't know what you're doing.

If you decide a certain prenatal, you're wrong.
If you gain to much weight, you're a fatty.
If you don't gain enough, you are harming the innocent baby.
If you take Tylenol, you shall burn in hell, I mean do you not realize the baby gets that too?
To be induced or not?
To get drugged or not?
Natural vs. Cesarean?
You suck, and are lazy if you don't go all natural with zero drugs.
I mean, why even have the baby in the hospital? Hello infections!

To breastfeed or use formula?
No one cares if baby didn't latch or not, they care that you are feeding that baby formula! I mean how dare you feed your child anything other then mother's milk?!

To feed in public or cover up?
Who the hell cares.

Did you carry my child for 40 weeks?
Does your stomach look like you had an affair with Edward scissorhand?
Did your vagina or uterus get torn open?

Your opinion isn't needed.
What makes one mom better?

Why can't moms come together as one, instead of making a competition out of it.
You are setting your child to be the same way.

'My kid will not be your kids friend, because he's vaccinated'

That's fine, take your hippie self somewhere else, because we don't have time for your judgement.

It goes the same with people who don't respect those who don't choose vaccines.
Affer the initial shock of how you choose to raise your own child:
My kids better.

'Oh your nine month old doesn't have the periodic table memorized? Thats to bad, he will probably be a serial killer'

'I can't believe he's not doing(insert whatever the other child does)'. Oh you mean your kid that is four years older then mine, congrats to yall he's super advanced.

My 52 month old still breastfeeds, and only eats organic foods. You can say hes four, thats fine too.

It goes all the way to people who want to tell me not to discipline my own son.

Aca-scuse me?
If I needed any advice or opinions on what I do as a mother I would ask.
I am not a mean person, nor do I think badly of moms who don't agree with my views.
That doesn't mean I am a bad mom and it doesn't mean you are either.

Different strokes for different folks, or something like that.

I just don't agree nor appreciate seeing others on social media or even people I know, judging others or myself.

Didn't we all get an egg fertilized?

So sleepy.

Lately, I have been so tired. It's so hrd to go to sleep at night, and even harder to not hit snooze in the morning. Once upon a time, I would go to bed around 9 and wake up around 8...now I go to bed about 1-2 and still get up at 8. Owen is my alarm clock, he usually gets up about 8:15, and is easy to hear but I have a 8 am alarm set so I can get my booty up and going.
I know this is late for a lot of people, but when I am going to sleep later and later every night, 8 am comes way to early. Maybe the move, and everything else happening is finally catching up to me. No idea.

A day in my life:
We wake up and I run up stairs to get Owen up, I kove his sweet kisses and hugs im the morning. We come down stairs and I change his diaper, potty training is in the near future(he can poop in the potty, but peeing we haven't grasped yet). After diaper change, I wash my hands and get him some milk, then start breakfast. I throw on mickey mouse, and get our vitamins and breakfast out. We eat, clean up and get dressed for the gym. The GYM! Once I dreaded this place, now I LOVE it. Me time. It's about 75 minutes of me time, Owen gets other children to interact with and mommy gets to sweat and work towards her goal. I love it. After the gym, I will either run errands if I need too, or we just go home. We will play for a bit, and I make owen his lunch. Nap time! Nap time is when I eat, catch up on shows, do laundry, and anything else I can cram into those two hours! Once Owen wakea up we play, watch a movie, read a book, really anything he wants to do. I want to get him some colors and paints again so we can do that, he loves coloring. When daddy gets home, that's Owen and daddy time! Owen loves Austin,  the bond they have is truly so amazing. Austin and Owen play, and I start dinner up, pay some bills, really anything I didn't do during nap time. We usually talk a little about all kinds of things, and then I go tan. We eat, bathe the gremlin, and read his bible stories. BAM 7:30 time for bed (:
Mommy and daddy time. Movies, video games anything we can do without my mini chasing me and tickling us.

Every day is basically the same, but I wouldn't change it. Ever. I really enjoy the mom life, and I enjoy being with Owen even more.
Life is good.
Tomorrow is weigh in Wednesday! I don't know if I will actually out my number on here yet, but I will put the lost and measurements and sizes (:

Little bit of this.

Today is about a little bit of everything.

New blog design, and some details I didn't touch on last week, so I figured I would start fresh and new!

The famous Hubby Jack gave me a face lift this weekend that I absolutely love! As you now know, my husband is in the oil field, I'm a stay at home mom with a two year old, and here I will document all the funny things he does, my weight loss journey, married life, and anything else I find amusing.

So first things first, I was once a blogging fool, but when we moved, a lot was going on, I didn't care to get Internet and just put that part of my life on hold. Well, we recently moved up to West Virginia to be with the hubs, because long distance just wasn't cutting it.
I had a lot of previous post that you could once refer too, to get to know me, but last week I deleted a lot. I made a joke about someone, it wasn't hurtful or by any means vicious, but she read it, and then proceeded to tell me what she thought of me and my blog and everything. For that day, I let her get the best of me. I was embarrassed about all the things that were said that I felt the need to go back and delete everything I posted. From me trying to lose weight right after Owen and much more.
After I let it sink in, I thought wait, I am upset that she wanted to make fun of me for actually getting my butt up and doing something with me life? I cried over someone who went and read all 80 plus post about me? Why?! I'm not the one stalking every form of social media,  so if its wrong that I connect with an awesome community, talk about my family, and get healthy...well who cares. I don't have time for that, and I never will. So I am not liked by someone.  Oh well.

This is my place, my safe zone.

I am a wife, and a mother--a young one at that. I started blogging after reading two womens blogs for a while and, deciding I can do this. I can have a whole community of people keeping me accountable for what I am trying to accomplish.

So here I am, 23 year old woman. My goal is to lose 20 more pounds, to be the best version of me that I can be, to be the best mother I can!

I will talk about recipes I learned from pinterest(I pin the best foods), funny things Owen says and does, what its like to be a step mom, life being married, the gym, and when the time comes, I will talk about us expanding our family.

I'm eager to start a new 'blog life'.
I can't wait to see where I am a month, two months, a year from now. I am even more excited to meet new people.
This isn't a place for negativity, I don't want it nor need it, I have some amazing friends and family and I am very happy with where I am and who I am, but I know I can only improve.

Thanks loads!

Friday, a letter to my son.

Friday, what better way to end my semi crappy week then with a letter to my sweet boy.

The reason I keep my head high and move forward, a true blessing.

Dear Owen,
Hello sweet boy! One day I can look back and share this with you.

You are two right now, and you are extremely smart! This morning at the gym, the child care teacher said, "I don't have a little boy, but if I did I would want him to be like Owen! He is so smart and has such a vivid imagination. " Talk about a way to make your mommies head big! Of course your dad and I know you are brilliant, but when others see it, my heart melts.

Right now, your imagination is wild and crazy! You are a sponge! Somehow you learned the phrase, 'I'm sexy' I don't know if I should correct this or just laugh.
You are counting and singing, and love to read the Bible that Aunt Nat and Uncle Miles got you.

You had your first experience with snow and loved it! I love being able to stay home with you and watch you grow. You love being up here with your daddy, I am so happy we made this move.

As a mother, my instinct is to protect you...teach you right from wrong.

This week I have learned a lot about right and wrong. How to turn your cheek to others, but also how to stand up for yourself. I pray that the world we live in will change for the better. I never want you to have to feel pain from another person, nor do I ever want you to be the person hurting another. I want you to be the person who stands up for others, follow your dreams and let them take you to places you only imagine.

Your father is such a great example of a true man and husband, I am so blessed that he will be your guide in what you should strive to be for your future wife.

Always know how much we love you. Know that all we do, we do for you. I look forward to watching you plays sports, bringing home your first report card, and following the right path.
If you play football or sing in the choir, I always want you to be the best 'you' that you can be. Never let someone stomp on your dreams or tell you that you are not good enough.

You are your own person, you are a strong minded little boy, and you will go far with whatever you decide to do.

I like you forever, I will love you for always,
Your mommy.

 

 

Lions don't lose sleep over sheep.

My best friend told me this yesterday. She always has the right thing to say at the right time. Austins words of wisdome was, "bitches be bitches".
I miss her more the words.
Other then Austin, and my trainer, Kaela and Mady are really the only people who know my journey and know how far I have come and how far I will go.

Enough about my day yesterday, today is a new day and I am feeling GOOOD! Thanks Michael Buble (:
So it's morning, just made O-man, daddy and I breakfast. We are going to eat, get dressed, and head to the gym. Burn a good 700 or more calories, come home and do some cleaning. 
Today will be a great day! I will make kt great.

I want to decorate for Christmas so bad, but Austin says its too early for all that.
So, I have all my Christmas decorations set aside (in the middle of our living room) ready to go.

Until tomorrow. 

Hurt people, hurt people.

Hurt people, hurt people.
It took me a while to really understand that saying...but its true.
People who hurt, will do anything to hurt others..or belittle others.

This is MY blog.
The place I come to write my thoughts, experiences, MY journey.
I have been MIA for a couple days, mostly because I have been busy being a kick ass mom and a wife.
Because that's what I am first.
I love blogging.
I love the people who I have met.
I love the community, because even though I may not know some of these people in person, they are way better then some of the people I do know.
Why are people so cruel?
Why do people judge so hard and try to hurt you and make you second guess yourself?

My family will always come first.
I may complain about Austin at times, or Owen screaming bloody murder, or even Brylee running crazy...but don't ever assume that I don't appreciate them or love them.
You know what assuming does don't you?

I try to be the best version of myself that I can be. Yes, I joke around and laugh, but I don't go out of my way to viciously hurt others and make them second guess themselves.
I have been called names before, we all have. I have called names before, we all have. I am no longer in high school though and I don't run around telling people bow disgusting they are or fat. Thats not even something that would cross my mind. Especially since I have been kicking ass in the gym, and I'm down almost 30 lbs and 4 sizes. So please, continue to address my weight with me and judge my body. My body that created life. A tiny human who kicks ass and I pray to God he doesn't grow up with the mouth that some people have.

As a mother and a adult I have to suck up these emotions and go forward.
I have to teach my children right from wrong, because I don't want anyone to ever talk to them they way some 'adults' feel as though they can talk to others.

Say what you want.
At the end of the day, I know I struggle with my marriage, I am human.
I know I struggle with my weight, I go to the gym every dam day though.
I know I struggle with my goals and achieving some of them, I became a mom and wife young. That's what I am first. School will be available when I am ready to finish, and I will.
What goes on in my life is just that, my life.
What I write in my blog is up to me.
Who I choose to be a part of my life is also up to me, and clearly I made a poor decision.

I won't ever regret who I am or what I do, because at the end of the day I know what I may or may not say is way better then the things that have been said to me.

Transformation Tuesday, and my current addictions.

Today, the famous 'Transformation Tuesday' according to Instagram.
I love Instagram, I feel like I have so many friends and know so many people.
When I don't, but what ev.

Let's transform:

Baby K'lynn (;

 Adult K'lynn.

Just a tad bit of change.
Not much.

Now on to a few of my favorite things.

I love TV series, my number one obsession.
I went crazy on our drive up here because I was missing so many shows. I know it's a bad habit, but Owen takes a two hour nap, and goes to bed at 7:30, so what else is a girl to do?

 

 

The Biggest Loser. Always motivates me, tears shed like no other.

How can you not want to take charge when people hundreds of pounds heavier do it.

 

My Love for The Originals may have surpassed my love for Vampire Diaries. I say MAY. I have such a crush on bad boy Klaus, and I just love the whole story line that they are doing.

 

I have watched Greys since day one. How else would I have so much doctoral knowledge if it wasn't for this show?

 

I don't know what I did with my life before I discovered this show.

 

I need to be prepared for a Zombie Apocalypse, and this show does just that. I discovered The Walking Dead last year on Netflix, and watched all the seasons available in about a week, and have continued to watch it.

 

 

 

Now on to other things that I love.

 

 

Unfortunately, it wont let me post some pictures. What the crap.

 

Jimmy Fallon is me second love.

Austin being my first, forever and always (:

 

 

I love Urban Decay makeup, I feel that it has made a huge difference in the way I look, and my confidence has went up a little. Maybe because I actually get dressed?



I love my polar watch, and some spark.
Going to the gym has become a habit, a good one at that. I actually enjoy getting up and going, and I really like seeing results.
I'm not all douche baggy and post a ton of pictures.

Austin bought me a Michael Kors purse, and I love it, I guess you can say that's my new little fashion love. In 15 more pounds I am gonna ask for a watch, or something nice and expensive...I mean come on I am doing us both favors.